Wow so life has been crazy since I posted 2 weeks ago. Every chance I get (which isn’t much time) I’ve been reading blogs from other D moms. See that is what we are called "D Moms" the moms of children with Diabetes. (by the way my 4 year old calls it diabebes. It is so cute). Well these moms have given me so much inspiration and have truly let me know I’m not alone. I just have to say thank you and give them a huge shout out. I have been sending their blogs out to people because there is no way I could put into words what I’m thinking right now and their words are so true!
I can’t explain how horrific these last few weeks have been, adjusting to Joshua's diabetes, Jackson having pneumonia (the day we came home from the hospital he was rushed to the dr and then to chest x rays) and then Joshua came down with a breathing issues and having to go on oral steroids which led to out of control Blood Sugars. Then came Jackson having to have allergy testing to try and help both boys with breathing. No allergies for Jackson~ Joshua is to young to test. More chest x-rays on Jackson found he has not healed from his pneumonia, and so they have sent blood work in for more tests. They say that a portion of his lung is still deflated/collapsed and they hope in another month it will be better. In the mean time he is on a daily inhaler and then we have an emergency one too. UGHHHH
So Joshua's numbers have been crazy which I know we are only in month 2 of the dx so of course they aren’t going to be normal but really 42 and a 572 in the same day! Give me a break. Our numbers are supposed to be between 100-200. I didn’t give juice to Jackson until he was almost 2 and even now at 4 it is almost always cut in 1/2. Not that I have any issue with juice but really I’d rather my kids get their fruit by eating it not drinking it. Well Joshua has had so many lows that he probably has had more juice in 2 months then Jackson had all year long. 2 months... WOW how long it has seemed... One of the D moms wrote a great blog about how she couldn't remember life before Diabetes. (I’ll try to find and give credit when I can) I am quickly thinking that those memories are far behind us... I really thought by now we would be getting into the swing of things... instead we have been living in crisis mode the entire time. I am hoping things calm down around me so we can focus on just the D.
Diabetes changes everything, even down to how I parent. With Jackson I decide we were done using the bottle and in one weekend we made the switch. I knew if he missed a drink he wasn’t going to "die" this was the saying I used to say. Now with Joshua, his numbers are so unpredictable that if I give him a cup and he refuses, I can’t wait him out for fear that his numbers will go down. At dinner with Jackson I used to give him dinner and if he refused the meal I would say well... he will eat it at the next meal. Not with Joshua... and man he knows it... he will spit it out and then just scream... let me say I think he might be well spoiled at the moment. So D-moms tell me how have you fixed this... I am not able to be nor would I like to be a short order cook. Joshua is only 13 months old, I can’t reason with him, nor can I let him not eat... how do I make sure he is eating healthy and what the family is eating without letting him be a yogurt and applesauce only eater.