Ive been in this funk the last few weeks... I am really frustrated and irritated! I am so mad that I cant put words to it. I am over being this "new" person that I am. We had a good Christmas, circumstances being what they are financially we did the best we could. For me Christmas was a very bitter sweet holiday this year. We spent the entire day fighting Joshua's low. We had a ton of family here which I loved. I LOVE hosting my family (both my side and Brian’s side). We have a small 1500 square foot home and when you put 20 people in it, it fills up quick. But it always works out. Anyway back to the bitter sweetness.
So If I know how blessed I am and I can see the other side of the coin WHY am I in such a funk. Why can I not bring myself to blog more and communicate with you. Why can I not find the energy to do simple things that need to be done? Christmas has been down for a while and we moved the boys to one room and made a playroom out of the other but I have 2 laundry baskets of books to sort and put away, taxes to start on, Christmas cards to send (okay really how about Valentine’s day cards), a dresser to sell on Craig’s list and the list goes on. Each of these things will take a few mins but I don’t want to do them... I don’t have the energy to do them. Then I go to bed angry I didn’t do them... UGHHH it is such a bad cycle!
Thanks for letting me vent!
|Family fun at Busch Gardens|
|My Parents with all 5 of the Grandkids *note all boys*|
|I was so excited to get this photo!!|
|note the testing we had all day of this!!|